hospitalniom.blogg.se

He was so in love with Nathan, that he was ready to destroy himself for him. He had to prove to Nathan he was not worthy of his love, not for him but for Nathan's good. but then I started to see something different, John was trying to degrade himself, he was trying to find a way to prove he was no good, that he wasn't indeed that God gift everyone was thinking, Nathan first in line. Again I approached this side of John in a negative way, I was thinking how unfair he was with Nathan, how stupid and selfish he was. And while at the beginning John was only having sex with women other than with Nathan, then he starts also with other boys, and then he starts doing "dirty" things with these boys once he understands Nathan is not up to the same game he is. I didn't like much John, especially since, even if he is always very nice with Nathan, he was also cheating on him with his girlfriend Mary, and cheating Mary with Nathan, but above all he was cheating both of them with other non-important flings.

While with all the women he is the dominant lover, with Nathan he is always the submissive strange as it's, John is able to have sex with a man only if that man is Nathan, and only if Nathan is in command.Īt first the author, through John's own words, let you have an imagine of John that is not exactly good he seemed quite conceited, convinced he is like a God gift for girls and guys, sex on legs like he said of himself. John Parker is an eighteen years old straight teenager who decides to give himself up for sex to his best friend Nathan Nathan is gay and in love with John, and John is thinking he can be Nathan's sex toy, while at the same time having a girlfriend and some other heterosexual adventures on the side. After the very long ride to read this book, I feel like worn out, an hole was forming in my heart and the author suddenly filled it in a rush, so strongly that it let me hurting.